Minor Muses, Week Three, May 1-May 4

Thursday, May 4

11:29 a.m.

How do I know when to show up?

11:25 a.m.

But it is also important to recognize that I can not show up every time for everyone. And, there are moments when my importance does not equal my sense of importance. It is confusing.

11:23 a.m.

Sometimes, the ripples stay unseen. I guess there are times it is hard to see past myself. It is important to show up. Not just for myself, but for others.

11:21 a.m.

The space remains, but my chapter ends. It becomes time to move on after creating a splash. Only in leaving do I see the ripples.

11:17 a.m.

It strange to make unrealized impacts—existing in space where everyone else holds supportive and collaborative roles combined with the inability to notice my own role, my importance, and my contribution to the effort.

9:40 a.m.

Reality Vs. Impulse & Future Tripping Vs. Imagination

9:38 a.m.

I guess I still need to work on balancing my grounded emotional parts to those who wants to soar as high as possible.

9:37 a.m.

I have worked so hard to find trust in myself. But when I get tired, the doubt creeps in and pulls my flightiness down.

9:34 a.m.

I realize I am never good at waiting. Unless at the airport. Am I impatient and fight against having to wait when there is a sense of uncertainty about what I am waiting for?

9:29 a.m.

Waiting. Wondering. Foggy. Uncertain if I am taking the right path.

9:25 a.m.

Sitting, staring out the window. Unable to move. I feel lonely of course. How life gets me sometimes. Surrounded by the most wonderful people, and still feeling alone.

9:21 a.m.

A the pressure is dropping in the valley. Changes in the atmosphere always trigger something inside.

9:17 a.m.

An uncertainty has drifted over my state of beingness. A discomfort. I am tired, and being tired doesn’t help.

Wednesday, May 3

5:26 p.m.

So, um, yeah. It has been a good day.

5:25 p.m.

Oh yeah, and I just submitted my tuition for yoga teacher training for this coming fall.

5:23 p.m.

Today’s accomplishments: Had coffee with an awesome friend, got a clean bill of health from the Dr., had another breakthrough and leveled up in therapy, and had another coffee with a different friend who is just as awesome.

11:11 a.m.

…….out

11:11 a.m.

In …….

11:10 a.m.

If you're seeing this, just take a moment to breathe.

11:09 a.m.

Hope everyone is doing well. It's a rest day today.

Tuesday, May 2

7:38 p.m.

Mic drop

7:36 p.m.

Hence the inconsistency of repetition as a framework for reality.

7:35 p.m.

History and life in general (meaning the process of life and death) are simply cyclical motions churning with linear motions.

7:34 p.m.

But that does not mean there are not cyclical patterns between generations.

7:33 p.m.

History does not repeat itself.

1:13 p.m.

It is like I am drowning.

1:10 p.m.

But also, sometimes I get overwhelmed. In those moments, I have a nervous itch that I can’t stay with it.

1:09 p.m.

I will admit, sometimes is do take pleasure in the motion.

1:07 p.m.

OMG where is the time going today!!! It never seems to stop.

10:05 a.m.

I keep making friends. It is pretty cool.

6:45 a.m.

My fav quote from yesterday: “Don’t get the darkest roast. Oh, and if you get a light roast, I am sending you back in there.”

6:43 a.m.

I just had a really good day yesterday. A lot of work. But a lot of good cheer and being able to be around the best, supportive people.

Monday, May 1

10:53 a.m.

I just have to be creative about what teaching means and how we can practice learning and teaching as an everyday practice.

10:47 a.m.

But that doesn’t mean I can’t be a teacher or a learning, too.

10:45 a.m.

I have been told I am good at it. But with the world how it is, I will never really be in a formal classroom again.

10:43 a.m.

Hearing from folks whose semesters are wrapping up have me thinking. I miss teaching.

10:39 a.m.

Whether it is good or bad.

10:38 a.m.

The weather is a way that I like to remind myself to stay present and just feel.

10:37 a.m.

Omg such a beautiful spring day. People in Laramie, Wyoming are still suspicious waiting for the next freeze and the next snow.