Minor Muses, Week Two, (April 27-April 29)

Saturday, April 29

12:39

It is a bitter-sweet tang within the song of hope…The bite from learning to let go and trust.

12:37

The joy and laugher in caring and finding how to give and receive support doesn’t have to justify the suffering. But the radical love found in caring community helps alleviate some of the bitterness that dreaming and hope can produce.

12:36

But there is also Love. Delight. A coziness in the dark. Comfort in the heat as we grow and learn to let go in the face of Death.

12:35 p.m.

Hopes and dreams are hard. And they are also dangerous. Full of nightmares. Full of waste. Full of loss. And Grief. And suffering. No matter how hard we try to avoid pain.

12:34 p.m.

Even as I dream of a future where I am not so alone. And a future where we—human, non-human and more-than-human bodies–all have a place to dwell without an experience of isolation and alienation.

12:33 p.m.

But I am tired. And I am scared. And I don’t feel there is a future.

12:31 p.m.

I’m frustrated ‘cause it is all so important to both my personal stability and my livelihood to create.

12:30 p.m.

Eeeeeekkkkk. Again! Time. And energy to work and think. I am struggling to find the motivation to work on creative and thesis work.

Thursday, April 27

4:05 p.m.

https://www.eventbrite.com/e/queerenvironmental-history-tickets-574817513657

4:03 p.m.

The event will be pretty neat, I just linked the RSVP.

4:02 p.m.

There is more. But I have other things to take care of so I will have to note everything else later. But cool news, in an hour I will be co-facilitating a event for the American Society of Environmental History celebrating the queer folks who are involved in environmental history and humanities.

4:01 p.m.

Thank you, Liz. You are the most bestest.

4:00 p.m.

Also the yoga teacher training program I want to join accepted my application for the fall.

3:59 p.m.

So much has happened. I found a place to live so I won’t be crashing in a place that is not my own anymore.

3:58 p.m.

Eeeeeekkkkkk. I disappeared. Now I am Back.